How do you know she's a witch?

I have this thought from time to time. I wonder how other people view me after reading my site? Not that I would be offended with other people having bad thoughts of me, but I wonder how I come across to total strangers. I think we see ourselves completely different than the rest of the world sometimes. Similar to the situation regarding tone deaf people and American Idol. They truly think they can sing and that the judges are just "jealous" or mean. Can't they hear their own voices? So when I think of my personality, I wonder if it differs from what others think of my personality.

I was not a believer in zodiac signs in the past. The key word there being WAS. I don't know now. I read a detailed description of the characteristics of my sign (Aquarius) and I was blown away. The description was about 90% correct. Actually it was dead on, but I am still in denial. Anyway, it was pretty accurate and it has changed my view of zodiac signs. I know, I know... there is a sense of heresy in that thought.

The real trouble I'm having with this thought concerns the details of the other signs. If my sign was pretty accurate, then does that mean the descriptions of the other signs are valid as well? I must form some kind of scientific experiment to test this theory (and more scientific than my cold test). Do I need to verify every one's zodiac sign before I socialize with them? What if we are conflicting signs? Perhaps, this is the cause of tension between people at work. Or my past failed relationships were caused by conflicting zodiac signs. The possibilities are endless...

My other theory is that I am finding a way to fit my personality into the description. Perhaps I am in desperate need to find answers to the unsolved questions in my life. Isn't this how people end up joining cults? They are looking for answers and someone convinces them that their "solution" is the one true answer. Hell, this is the basis for Scientology.

While I'm bouncing from one thought to another, I don't remember if I ever mentioned my brief touch with Scientology. I'm too lazy to check my previous posts. If I've mentioned this before, then just ignore me.

I was at an outdoor mall in San Diego around this time last year. As I was walking up to the mall, there were a few tables set up outside of the mall. I had heard about Scientology in the past, but never put much thought into the religion. Well, they had the E-meters set up on the tables and asked if I wanted to improve my life. I knew this had to be a scam, but I was interested in listening to their pitch. I did the whole E-meter thing and the guy was convinced that I had issues with my father and was experiencing great stress in my life. I like how they ask you these serious questions, turn the knobs a little, then ask you more questions. It was a huge load of crap. I was enjoying the debate with him regarding my stress. I guess he figured I was not going to be an instant convert and switched to salesman mode. He tried pushing their books and literature on me. Well playing mind games with me is one thing, but I will not stand for the pushy salesperson routine. I got up and started to leave, when you switched to the "I'm sorry" routine. They are pretty good, I'll give them that. He wanted to get my personal information to send a free gift. Yeah right. I walked away and never looked back.

The one last detail I didn't mention was that I was with an ex-girlfriend at the time. While I was messing with their E-meter machine, she was at another E-meter table. After I started walking away she caught up to me. Low and behold she had their book in her hand. I couldn't believe she actually paid money for their propaganda. And it gets worse. She actually gave them her personal information. To this day, she is still getting their literature for meetings in Houston.

The reason I mentioned this last detail is to try and understand why people fall for this crap. I think she was desperately looking for some guidance in her life at that time and thought the E-meter / book might help. She later realized that it was a load of crap and threw away the book. Obviously, she is not the only person that fell for their scam. There are several well known (hopefully smart) people that believe in Scientology. Are they missing something in their lives to have them join this so called religion?

Back to my last thought (are you actually still reading this post?). Perhaps I am just searching for answers. I have experienced this phase of life several times in the past. I tried going back to religion (Catholic and others), but they just didn't do IT for me. I still felt something drastic was missing from my life. It kind of feels that way now, but I don't know what could be missing. I feel happy in my personal life. I'm sorta happy in my professional life. It could improve, but for the most part it is nice. So what is missing? I don't know, but I'm sure my life will sort itself out eventually. It always does.

I guess this is one of those "mind wandering everywhere" days. Hell, why did I even quote "mind wandering everywhere" in the last sentence? Someone please tell me I'm not the only weird person on this planet.

Many a day, my life resembles a Monty Python movie.

Maybe I was really supposed to be British and my life was crossed up somewhere. That would be funny if there was some guy in England that enjoys Mexican soap operas and thinks that perhaps he should have been born a Mexican American.