Fork in the road

Am I the only person in this world that does not see a fork in the road when I approach it? I seem to never see that life changing decision while it is occurring, only afterwards in hindsight. In kind of bums me out at times because I wonder if I would have made a different decision had I known there were other options at that moment.

One of these decisions involves my educational path. I really wished I went to a local college first before attending a major university. I may have learned to not party so much and then I could have really focused my energies while in the major university. But noooo, I went straight to Texas A&M from high school. I couldn't resist the urge to party and slack off. When I was deciding which university to attend, I had no other options in my mind. It was A&M all the way. In fact, I didn't even apply to any other colleges. I kind of just took it for granted that I would go there. I didn't even consider what would happen if they didn't accept me. That was one of those life choices I never made. It was like I had my life all figured out and would not ever need to make any decisions in life. How naive I was.

My latest fork in the road I fear is concerning my current career path. I have this path that I am on, but I didn't choose this path. It was actually chosen for me. I was new and eager to learn anything. I had an opportunity to learn a new operating system and took that chance. And now nine years later, I'm a system administrator. I kind of just kept going on that career path. But what if I was supposed to be a manager or a programmer? Every time an opportunity came up that led me down that path, I would reject it without thinking about the choice.

I know this post is going on and on and on... I just wonder sometimes if my choices are the right choices. I think that I don't THINK enough about my choice options. I kind of just pick one and go with it. Maybe I'm being too hasty sometimes.

I apologize for the rather bummy post today. I feel it's going to be one of those life contemplating days ahead.