Life Sines

Am I the only one who has drama in his life ALL the time? Actually, drama is not the correct word to use here. Stress would be a better word. It seems like my life is always full of stress somehow. ALL THE TIME.

If my professional life is going stress free, then my personal life is stressed. If my personal life is stress free, then my work life is stressed. I thought initially it was my perception of how my life is going at that moment in time. I created the stress whenever it was in my life.

I don't think this is the case anymore. I can honestly see a pattern here. I believe that our lives follow some sort of rhythmic pattern. It's like a sine wave. There are highs and lows to this life pattern. They are constant, but the amplitude of the waves change quite frequently. When life is more stressful, the amplitude of the wave increases.

My original thoughts were completely different. I thought that a normal person did not have these "waves" in their life all the time. There would be this flatline and then when there was stress, the waves would occur. As things calmed down, the flatline would reappear. I don't think this is the case anymore. I think we can never have a true flatline. There will always be something stressing us. If it's a little stress then the amplitude of the wave is miniscule. Naturally, my life is full of big positive and large negative amplitude waves. Perhaps, I am prone to amplify these waves artificially. I stress out sometimes when there really is no need to stress. I learned this behavior from my mother. She stresses out over the smallest things. As I get older, I notice these patterns with more clarity.

So... why am I putting this fault out there for the world to judge? For the same reason I put all my other faults out there. To help me stop reacting in the same pattern. I don't like all this amplified stress in my daily life. I know there has to be a better way to live. If this post brings me one step closer to that style of life, then by all means I will share it with the world.