You Don't Want to Make Me Angry

I have a huge fault that does not come out often but it bugs the hell out of me when it does show it's ugly head. I don't know why some people can rub me the wrong way at work, but I can become this huge asshole when they do. Well, asshole is kind of a strong word. Let's just say I'm pretty hard headed. I will defend my points to no end.

There was this person today that got under my skin in a meeting today. We exchanged some heated words in front of the meeting. Nothing too bad, but everyone else in the meeting was silent through the whole process. I can't describe the whole scenario because of my no work policy on blogging.

That's not the important part. The part that bothers me is that I let it get to that level. I strive on my sense of professionalism at the workplace. I did not maintain a level of composure like I normally do. I am now searching for any form of book that I can use to help me calm this inner rage at times. It angers me that I let her get to me like that. I am the only one who controls my emotions, but today I let her have some control over my emotions. Actually, I didn't let anyone else have control of my emotions, I lost control of my emotions. That is something that is a huge fault in my eyes.

Sometimes I wish I could turn green whenever I start to get angry. Perhaps people would leave me alone afterwards and let me be.