Breaking up is never something anyone WANTS to do. But life happens, and we all face the end of a relationship at one point or another. I am torn between mixed emotions. Pain, anger, denial... these are all classic emotions expected after the loss of a relationship.
But the one feeling I used to feel all the time afterwards was numbness. I so want that feeling right now. I just want to feel numb to not feel the hurt anymore. And no matter what I do, I can't seem to get that numbness now. I have tried drinking, isolating myself, being around others... nothing seems to work. Certain words, actions, thoughts trigger memories of her. I just wish I didn't feel right now. I used to call that the zombie mode. I used to not like feeling like that and now it's the one feeling I wish I could feel again. Because the pain I feel right now is so intense, I'm not sure how much more I could take without losing my sanity.
But the one feeling I used to feel all the time afterwards was numbness. I so want that feeling right now. I just want to feel numb to not feel the hurt anymore. And no matter what I do, I can't seem to get that numbness now. I have tried drinking, isolating myself, being around others... nothing seems to work. Certain words, actions, thoughts trigger memories of her. I just wish I didn't feel right now. I used to call that the zombie mode. I used to not like feeling like that and now it's the one feeling I wish I could feel again. Because the pain I feel right now is so intense, I'm not sure how much more I could take without losing my sanity.
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