Year of Reflection

It always come back to this time of year. Screw the resolution thing this year. The past few years I have created resolutions and not even come close to fulfilling the resolutions. Why? Because I'm a lazy fuck, that's why.

So what to do this year? Well, I have decided to follow the Time Magazine format and declared 2007 the "Year of Reflection". I have spent most, if not all, of the year looking inward at myself. I have spent a lot of energy on this reflection. What has all of this reflection returned into my life? Nothing. Absofuckinglutely nothing.

I now declare 2008 the "Year of Action". A person can only look inward for so long before going crazy. And if your crazy to begin with, then words can not even begin to describe the insanity going through my head.

Only time will tell if this works better than the resolution thing. All I know is that I need to start doing something other than analyze myself all the time.

What if God was one of Us

I think I've said this before, but what if the Devils minions are not aware that they are evil? What if they think they are doing good, but they are actually causing evil to exist in this world?

First off, there would need to be a belief in God / Devil for that to happen. Right? But what if that non-belief is what helps spread the evil along? What if they convince enough people that there is no God nor the Devil and that causes them to lose their way?

I don't know why this popped into my head this morning, but it did. I have been told many, many times that I have caused people to lose their belief in religion. Perhaps not all the way lost, but stopped going to church lost.

I don't know anymore. All I can say is that I just came from a two hour car trip recently with just me and my very religious mom alone in the car. It wasn't pretty.

Along those same lines, my Dad mentioned that he gave money to a homeless man yesterday that asked for money. I asked him why he gave him money and he said, "What if it was the big J.C.?"

I then said, "What would Jesus need money for?" Ummm... yeah. That didn't go over to well either.

Anyway, time to ponder my eternity in hell now.

Soulmate

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
who knows how to love you without being told
somebody tell me why I'm on my own
if there's a soulmate for everyone

- Natasha Bedingfield

Zeus I am

Have you ever noticed people in a bookstore that look like they are trying to find a date? They just wander about aimlessly. Looking here... looking there. Then there is the tell tell glance around. Back to looking at books. Now let's try the magazine section. Looking around again.

It's even funnier when viewed from up above. I feel like a god looking from Mt. Olympus. Or some Sims game where I can only watch the characters interact with each other. Or NOT interact with each other.

This brings me great joy. I'm such a prick.

Need a new pair of shoes

I was watching Forrest Gump and there is a line that stuck out at me like a sore thumb.

"Mama said that sometimes you just have to put the past behind you. I think that's why I was running."

I think that was part of the reason I ran a few years ago. I need to start running again.

I'm dreaming of a midly humid warm Christmas

I'm sitting here in shorts, t-shirt, and flip flops. IN THE MONTH OF DECEMBER. This insanity has to stop. Why do we even have seasons anymore. We should reduce the seasons to two. Hot and Cold. In Houston, we would have two months of Cold season and freakin ten months of Hot season. At least I wouldn't get my hopes up each year that this is the magical year we have snow during Christmas. Hell, even something below 60 degrees during Christmas would be nice.

Red > Green

You know what I wanted when it first came out but couldn't get? An American Express Red Card. It is only available if you are an English (England not American) resident. That sucked then and it still sucks now. I figured it was only a matter of time before they would bring it here, but no. Still no American version of the Red Card.

I wanted it for selfish reasons... it looks damn good. I know that's sad to say for a credit card, but it really does stand out. Of course, there is the whole product Red thing that I do support.

So now I see that the Red card has become trendy with the R&B singers and rappers. They have it in songs and flash it in videos. Fuckers... why ya gotta be rubin it in my face, huh?

Anyway, just had to vent that out for a sec and now I'm good again.