Blogzot

I have discovered a cool new way that is getting mac people free software. They are trying to promote this software and for each entry on a blog somewhere they will reduce the price of the software by $.05. I know that may not seem like a lot, but the potential is pretty good. Get enough people together and the software eventually becomes free.

I'm doing my part.

SubEthaEdit from CodingMonkeys
BLOGZOT 2.0 on MacZOT.com

I think this is a cool idea and hope that other companies try something similar.

Categorizing my life

Hi, my name is Daniel and I'm a workaholic. Yep, I hate missing work. The few times that I do call in sick is actually to do some sort of side job. I usually never take a day off just to relax.

I have been sick the past couple of days, yet I tried to go into the office yesterday. BIG, BIG mistake. I ended up going in around 9:30 and leaving by noon. I was feeling like complete crap. So I ended up forcing myself to call in sick today.

But you know what. I'm still working (Just from home). There is something mentally wrong with me. Well, besides all the other crazy mental crap that is part of my life. I have this sick feeling that if I'm not doing something, then I feel like I'm wasting so much time. I really need to stop and sit in complete silence some times. I need to unwind my brain. I end up so wrapped up in day to day things, that I can't sleep. Then I'm up late and do not want to wake up in the morning.

I have so much I want to accomplish, but the procrastinator in me just wont let that happen. Then I feel overwhelmed because there is so much left to do. Pretty sick, isn't it?

I read this site the other day that give a pretty good tip for people like me. It said that I need to start labeling things into different categories. Right now, everything is in the "have to do" category. But that is not really true. Most of the stuff in that category are really "want to do" items. So I need to separate my life into subcategories. "Have to do", "Want to do", "Would be nice to do", and so on. Then I just need to make sure all of the have to do items are completed and can move on to the other categories. I think this is a pretty good system. Of course, the real test is will I use this system. It's one thing to like something, but it's a totally different thing to actually implement something.

I knew something that once said, "Life is not about words, but actions."

I think I'll have to follow that philosophy and do something about this insanity in my life.

Hot Flashes

I think I'm going through menopause... I am consistently hot (ALL THE TIME).

Yeah Yeah... I know I'm hot and all, but not that kind of hot. Seriously, I'm freaking melting here. I don't know if it's something chemically / hormonally changing in me. Or is it my recent weight gain. I feel as if I'm going to spontaneously combust.

The good part of that is that my metabolism is definitely working if I feel hot all the time. I just wish I could take a pill or something to cool me off. Don't they make pills for menopause. Hmm... I wonder...

And why is it called menopause? Men don't go through that change. Maybe it's because men can not understand what is happening and making us "pause" in wonderment. I don't know. Fuck, can someone give a brother some air???

Looking in from the outside

I can not believe I have not created any entries since March 27th. In fact, I haven't really been reading other people's blogs since that time frame either. I don't know why I get like this sometimes. I know I've been super busy lately, but that is no excuse. Seriously, how long does it take to create a new entry ( a few minutes?). There have been plenty of times that I wanted to put something down in writing, but for some reason I did not.

Anway, I digress...

I guess all this talk of death lately has me thinking hard about my life. And you know what? My life has never been more clear to me. I know I'm probably deluding myself, but it does seem to make sense right now. I used to feel so lost all the time. I still don't know what life has in store for me, but I'm okay with that thought. I like not knowing. It makes life much more interesting.

I put so much pressure on myself all the time. Everyone knows the constant phrase, "Would you feel ready to go if you were to die today?" And I do (to some extent). Sure I have a lot I want to still accomplish, but just the fact that I try my best to live life everyday makes me feel complete. Crap... Now I sound like one of those inspirational posters. I hate those posters... they seem so fake to me.

So if you see someone walking around with a little extra "pep", that's probably me. I just hope that this feeling is constant and not some temporary form of insanity. Who am I kidding... my level of insanity would never be labeled "temporary". It really does feel like I'm on the outside looking into someone else's life. Oh well, I'll enjoy this ride while it lasts.