It's finally been done. I told "E" last night about this site and I'm
sure she will eventually take a look at my postings. I don't know why
I'm so fearful of people knowing about this site. I know I'm afraid
that it would influence my postings. I hope this is not the case. I
cherish the fact that I can express my true thoughts and emotions on
this site without feeling judged. I guess I always figured that if
someone out there judged me on my postings, I wouldn't really care.
But if it's someone that is close to me and they judge me on my
postings, I don't know how that would affect me.
Everything that I have posted in the past has been based on real
experiences and thoughts in my life. So when I was telling "E" some
of the things I have posted in the past she was kinda surprised. I
don't think it really bothered her, rather it intrigued her. So, it
will be interesting to see how this affects my postings.
Even worse, what if she freaks out about my internal thoughts and
never wants to see me again? Well, I'm only expressing my private
thoughts and hopefully she would be accepting of me (even my freaky
twisted mind). I guess I'll have to wait and see...
No comments:
Post a Comment