Who Needs Downtime

I think in order to compensate for my feeling of loneliness the past
few months, I feel the need to be super busy in my life. I am running
around non-stop and try my hardest to get some personal downtime
whenever possible. It seems that more and more of the personal
downtime is disappearing from my life. I am trying to make changes in
all facets of my life at the moment and I think it is starting to
catch up to me. I am so exhausted but I can not find the energy to
stop and relax for a moment. I am working in overdrive to find a new
job and this in itself is very time consuming. I am also working on
increasing my social circle and going out with my friends more often.
As if this wasn't enough, I am also working on my personal
relationships and allowing other people into my life unguarded. This
is extremely draining in regards to the amount of emotional energy
required.

I have never understood why people take personal vacations by
themselves and get away from everyone. I believe I can understand why
this is required sometimes. I have this strong desire to just take a
week off from work and wander the earth by myself. Sometimes I feel
the need to just be by myself away from the rest of the world.
Perhaps this is a way to recharge the soul and realize the important
things in life. Until that vacation comes, I have depended on my good
old friend (caffeine) to help keep me going through the week.

Calgon, take me away...