Help Me, Help Me Now!!!

So, remember the time I told you that I was in this blogpression and now I'm out of it? Well, It appears that I have swung 180 degrees and I am way to into it. Not my blogging so much, but viewing other blogs. I just can't get enough of them lately. I have even resorted to hitting the "Next blog" button in the top right corner of the screen. I have come across so many interesting sites. It's pathetic really. I feel as if I am living vicariously through these other people's lives.

Hold on, I need a second (hanging head in shame).

Okay, so now that I got this off my chest, what do I do next? Do I stay locked up in my place constantly surfing the 'net' looking for the next great blog site? Or do I face civilization and socialize with other people? Decisions, Decisions...

Well, I'm not quite sure yet. This is just like me. All or nothing. No gray area for sure. This is definitely one of my flaws. I go full force into things and then when they don't work out. I just chalk it up to circumstance and go about my business. Why can't I be like other normal people and casually enjoy the blogging of others and then resume my normal social life. No... I have never been normal.

I used to cherish the fact that I was always different than everyone else around me. I was always the one to stand up in class and make a fool of myself because I just didn't care what other people thought of me. Now that I'm older, It just seems so tiring at times to be different. It is definitely so much easier to be like everyone else and just fit in. But that seems so boring to me.

I know this is going all over the place with no point what so ever, but hear me out for just a little while longer. Or not, to be honest, I really wouldn't know if you didn't fully read this posting. Huh, that's a strange thought. What if people don't fully read my posts? What if they read the first few lines and think, "This is crap. I'm not going to read anymore of this." Now that could make a person paranoid for sure. Or in my case, even more paranoid.

If you haven't noticed by now, I am full of crap most of the time. Sometimes my crap makes sense and helps others. Most of the time it is just crap. Right then...

So I guess my posts makes utterly no sense now and now comes the awkward silence part of the conversation. You know that silence. Well, I guess I must be going now. Perhaps I will find my mind somewhere between now and the next posting.