Seven deadly sins

I was thinking about this topic on the way into work this morning. I believe that I have committed just about all of the deadly sins in my life. Hell, I probably created a few more deadly sins along the way. But the one "deadly sin" that I commit the most would definitely be Pride. The big one. Supposedly, all of the other deadly sins derive from this one.

I'm sure I have been prideful several times in my life, but I think the part that is the worst is not pride in itself. It's a much darker version of pride. I constantly feel as if everything in this world involves me somehow. As if I'm the center of the world. I know this sounds crazy, but there are some of you out there that can relate. I know I'm not the only one out there that experiences this from time to time.

Anyway, I constantly have to keep myself in check to ensure the reality that I create matches actual reality. It's a self check diagnostic that I perform throughout the day to ensure my brain is working properly. I have an overactive imagination. It's a wonderful thing for a writer or movie director. But for an average person, it's a pain in the ass. Add my normal dose of paranoia to the mix and it's a recipe for disaster.

I don't know why I'm sharing this with the world. Maybe it's because I've hidden it for so long. Hiding something like this for almost thirty-two years is tiring. I know there is no such thing as a "perfect" person. We each have our flaws (some worse than others), but I just wish I had someone else's flaws for a while. Wouldn't it be fun to be able to switch flaws with each other. I'd hold someone's flaw regarding shallowness, and they could hold my flaw of insanity. I bet many more people out there in the world would be happy to have some of their flaws if they could just experience mine for a couple of days.

Oh well, I don't know why I'm being such a downer this morning. I guess I just need to zone out for a little bit. Me, my coffee, some music and lot's of work.