I don't want to be a chicken, I don't want to be a duck

(EDIT: Since this seems to be a constant search hit on google, see my post Here for the chicken dance lyrics.)

I think I finally realized why I feel so lost sometimes. I have no plan in my life. Nothing. I have no short term nor a long term goal. I have previously mentioned that my goal was to graduate from college. I did that seven years ago and have not made any goals since then. I was so tired after achieving my degree that I wanted to just take a break and not think about any other goals for a while.

I think seven years is long enough. I need to make some new goals. So what are my goals? I'm not quite sure yet. I want to live someone else. I am so tired of this city and want to live somewhere far away. I'm thinking San Francisco or New York. I know it not easy and their is the whole cost of living thing, but damn it I want to do it. I will make this a long term goal.

It is not possible for me to just up and leave for that kind of distance right now. I have a few years left before I can do the move. So what then? I'm not sure. I want to move to Austin perhaps. It's just far enough to be different, but it's still close enough to allow me to come back when necessary. I love Austin. I love the city, I love the environment, and I love the scenery. I just don't know.

My more realistic reality is to get my Masters degree within the next few years. This could be timed just right. I would get my degree and then when I'm finished I could move to another city. The thing holding me back from the degree? Money. I've mentioned it before and I have such a hard time justifying the cost of the degree. That's a big ass loan to take out.

Another short term goal... learn Spanish. I know I keep mentioning this and even I tell myself "bullshit" each time I hear it from my mouth, but I want to learn it. What will it take for me to actually learn the language?

I guess that applies to all my goals. What will it take for me to keep these goals? What's the difference between short term goals and New Year's resolutions? If I can not keep those, then how in the hell am I going to achieve my goals?

This is the part that I need to figure out. Maybe I should just sign up for the classes and commit my money to the goal. Then I would have to work toward my goal. Right? Phhttt... NO.

I've tried that before. I just end up losing my money and still the same person as before. I can't keep thinking like that. After all, this is the Year of Action not the Year of Denial.

So to recap what my goals are right now.

Long term: Move to another city
Short term: Master's Degree, Learn Spanish, Lose 50 pounds