I wish...

Isn't it amazing how other people see things around us that we are not aware of until later in life? I don't know why I'm thinking about this right now. I am listening to Kate Nash's song "Nicest Thing" and her lyrics are so powerful.


I wish that without me your heart would break,
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.
I wish that without me you couldn't eat,
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.

All i know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen;
I wish that we could see if we could be something


How many times have other people felt this way about us without us knowing? How many times have you felt that way about someone without that person knowing how you felt? I have done this before. I'm sure everyone has felt this way about someone.

When I had lunch with my mom the other day, I mentioned that I ran into an old friend the other day. She is married now and doing her own thing. I haven't seen her in fifteen years. That's when my mom said that she had a crush on me all that time.

I didn't know what to say. Wow, I never knew. How the hell did my mom know that, but I never caught on? I think when you are so close to something, it's hard to distinguish the tree from the forest. Having distance from those situations can help me see those things more clearly.

Would I have acted differently back then if I knew she had a crush on me? Perhaps. I guess I'll never know.