Withdrawal

I think that I will be a kid for the rest of my life. At least
internally, I will not grow old. I have a hard time doing "adult"
things and making "adult" decisions. It all seems so boring and
stuffy to me. Well, I have come to realize that some of my actions
lately have been affecting others and influencing people that
normally act like adults. I have these ability to bring out the youth
in people around me. Perhaps its my boyish charm or the possession of
my soul by evil spirits. Either way, when I go out at night, I have
an ability to allow others around me to have a really good time. So
good in fact, that they have a hard time at work the next day. At
first I thought it was just the people I was associating myself with,
but now I can clearly see a pattern. I happen to do this with
everyone that goes out with me. It gets so bad now, that I have to
rotate through friends just so they can keep up with me.

So where is this all leading?

Well, today I heard this phrase from someone that has been trying to
keep up with me for the last couple of weeks. "I am going to have to
take a break and get some downtime. I am just physically and mentally
exhausted. I can't even think clearly anymore." Mind you, we pull all
nighters at least three times a week. And when I mean "all nighters",
I mean no sleep what's so ever (During the work week). I guess I
never realized how much of an influence I can be around people when
it comes to partying. I have been living off caffeine and energy
drinks lately. This can not be good for my liver (in addition to the
large quantities of alcohol I am also consuming throughout the
night). I'm losing more and more people to hang out with during the
work week. I think it might be because they are scared of what the
night entails.

So, I guess I'll take the "adult" road in life and give it a try
every now and then. This should be interesting to go through the day
with a clear head and actually be productive in my work. Naturally, I
will have to slow down on the caffeine and sadly start my withdrawal
process. If anyone sees me curled up in a fetal position in the
corner, just look away. This won't be a pretty sight when I start to
come down from my caffeine high.